POEM- FRAGMENTS OF "YOU"

Every little step
I have to choose between 
The choices begins with you 
And ends before me.
If i didn't choose you 
I choose somebody else 
I gave away all I could
But I never choose myself 
Its hard to forget , very hard to resist
I should regret more
And I think , I'm too sober for this 
In my mind it's all stupefy how you went 
But you're not here 
Still stays in my head
When I put my head down
I close my eyes
I ask myself, 
What did I do to loose you mine?
The picture of you I see in my dreams 
Long curled lashes
dark downcast shape
falling like curtain 
On a moonlit lake.
Pretty bright iris 
Shining so fine
oh what a sigh of bliss
Of the laughing brown eyes .
Those bright eyes giving the feeling of autumn 
The time one could relive very often
Our love was alike as different seasons 
you were already at fall
while
I kept waiting for you at spring without any reason .
what did I do to lose you mine?
The thought of you makes me feel like spring
where we are no more burning 
and no more shivering 
Now I think of you from time to time
to rekindle my relationship with pain and wine.
You didn't even utter a single word 
All I could feel was the semblance of us 
The feeling of falling into love 
The feeling of you calling mine
But what I could possibly recall is
You were no one but my spine 
And I am sorry for myself , I wouldn't want a single minute to love somebody else .
Where rain took the departure 
The sky was getting darker
Conditions set us apart 
There was barely a hope for the next time.
Because this very moment 
Our destinies were farther 
And I knew I have disappointed you 
It breaks me 
Kills me and it hurts me
Sitting alone looking at the stars 
Under the same tree
My heart aches and sighs , 
What did I do to lose you mine ?
And I know you will be missing me and same do I